"This is what you get
This is who I am
Take me now or leave me
Any way you can
Sometimes I trip and fall
But I know where I stand
If you're thinking about changing my direction,
Why mess with imperfection?"
~ Chorus from "Imperfection" by Saving Jane
This song "Imperfection" has been the soundtrack to my day. Its peppy little bounce has been looping over in my head and sums up where I am. This Unravelling course is nothing less than awesome. Wish I could share details but I'm not privy due to e-course rules.
Anyway, facing yourself squarely and looking at yourself in the mirror--past the make-up, cute hair and contacts--and really looking inside was scary at first. I wasn't sure who I'd find since I haven't done this sort of introspection in years. I thought I'd be scared to face her--me. Thought I'd be scared to my post my pictures to the group pool on Flickr for our assignments. Just knew I'd be frightened to read the feedback left on my photos. Thought the writing assignments would bare too much, unearth stuff buried. Not so. I'm uploading my stuff with no bit of fear. Welcoming comments with open arms. Celebrating me, who I am. This is it-this is who I am. This is what I've got to work with. Sure there's lots I need to work on, some rough edges that need to be sanded down. But this woman I've grown into is looking pretty good (at least today!)
This is me:
I get short-fused when I'm sleepy
Grouchy when I'm hungry
Insecure around people who are walking in their purpose
Intimidated around strong-willed people
I buckle when faced with someone else's anger
Fuzzy-brained when I can't put my feelings into words
Angry when I fail as a parent
Scattered when things are disorganized
Antsy about future plans that I'm not aware of
Stuck in my tracks when I let people down
Double-minded in so many ways
Yet a stickler at the same time
This is who I am
Take me now or leave me
Any way you can
Sometimes I trip and fall
But I know where I stand
If you're thinking about changing my direction,
Why mess with imperfection?"
~ Chorus from "Imperfection" by Saving Jane
Anyway, facing yourself squarely and looking at yourself in the mirror--past the make-up, cute hair and contacts--and really looking inside was scary at first. I wasn't sure who I'd find since I haven't done this sort of introspection in years. I thought I'd be scared to face her--me. Thought I'd be scared to my post my pictures to the group pool on Flickr for our assignments. Just knew I'd be frightened to read the feedback left on my photos. Thought the writing assignments would bare too much, unearth stuff buried. Not so. I'm uploading my stuff with no bit of fear. Welcoming comments with open arms. Celebrating me, who I am. This is it-this is who I am. This is what I've got to work with. Sure there's lots I need to work on, some rough edges that need to be sanded down. But this woman I've grown into is looking pretty good (at least today!)
This is me:
I get short-fused when I'm sleepy
Grouchy when I'm hungry
Insecure around people who are walking in their purpose
Intimidated around strong-willed people
I buckle when faced with someone else's anger
Fuzzy-brained when I can't put my feelings into words
Angry when I fail as a parent
Scattered when things are disorganized
Antsy about future plans that I'm not aware of
Stuck in my tracks when I let people down
Double-minded in so many ways
Yet a stickler at the same time
"Ego trips and stupid slipups, I'm a mess but...
This is what you get
This is who I am."
This is what you get
This is who I am."
And the unravelling continues......
